Hell no~

You know those days, that you've been trough something that really makes you happy but suddenly falls apart by hearing something you knew that would be happening but ya didn't wanted to face the truth? In my case.. I'm finally doing fine at school. And now I got a problem a really big problem. I have to admit this time I really don't know how I can solve this shiz... It would be easier for me If my friends sticked with one idea in the mind. I don't want to kick their ass for this sittuation where we've landed into cause I don't like confusing ppl. Especially Cathy and yush I know I should talk about it, that is what bfs do when there's something on their mind.
The Q is am I able to change the fact that I'm not going to hk? 
Now.. I don't trust this whole trip to hk anymore, especially those ppl who've promised me things but that they will never comply it.. You can say things so easy you know that? ..but you just don't understand me. Even when you say yes I do, I know you don't! cause your not me. I'm landed in a shit thing called hell. Whut do you want me to do or let's say what
can I do? I saved so much money for this whole vancation, I even told my self I would buy myself lenses when I proceed this year.. Now everything exploded? That's also the way how i'm feeeling now. Don't you at least feel a little bit sorry for this? I don't want to blame you but you just made me cry not that you wanted to but still you're a idiot ^$%@%

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I'm serious~ I'll never be able to fly to hk just to feel how it is over there.. spotting boys and that stuff. this really sucks ._______." Probably there will be walking a lot boys over the street like this;
I'll be screaching a wayy to my goal, the stars the who unniversary. I won't give up even the tears are more than the hope I still have. This is not going to stop me from doing want I want to do. Cause are you crazy? giving up your vancation because your friend told you he'll be sleeping at an other friends house? NOO nevaaaa~ Isoling luong don't give up this easyly ha!
to be continued..
XOXO